No matter how much I tried to lie to myself,
There you were.
You are the one stability in life that I stayed honest to.
The only one that stayed honest to me
I tried to desert you more than once,
But you were always so easily embraceable upon my return.
Weathered I was for you,
And helplessly dependant on sometimes.
I devoted myself to you
But I still deserted you that once
And now i am still hurt by that period of seperation
That I wasn't there for you.

written 7-31-00
by absentmuse